Drugs

If you do drugs, this may not be a good blog to read, although i dont think anyone reads my blogs anyways, im going to go on a ranting spree to get some things off my chest. Marijuana, what the big deal about it!? It is not even that FUN! When people do it, they just sit there like lumps on a log, nothing happens, no one does anything extraordinary, people just veg. I dont understand why people think its soooo cool and dangerous to try it. Although it makes you feel good....hell...so does chocolate! Why not eat that instead!? It literally does kill brain cells..I mean how many people do you know who did pot their whole lives who are ultimately successful...HMMM! Well I dont know ANY. I know people who did do it their entire lives and they are working for retail jobs and go from job to job paycheck to paycheck. I know this is a serious generalization...but it applies to the people I know. I can't even carry a conversation with people who are high ....they have no idea what they are talking about...their memory fails them the minute they open their mouth, talking in circles ...(sigh). It has been a problem for me in all of my relationships....whats the need to do it? He says, its not addictive, therefore its not a drug...WHAT?? how does that make sense?? If it is illegal, thats a big deal in itself...its a drug that shouldnt be in the public...its not on the market for a reason! If it isnt addictive, then why not just stop doing it?? Another thing I dont get is how some people think that after they try pot, why other drugs sound much better! Why out due yourself...trying other drugs to get a better high....its just stupid and risky. Ive known several kids who have gone down that road and they are heading nowhere fast...no college...married ...on welfare....use all the money for drugs...no food...starving...kicked out from their parents home....really Is it worth all that? To do drugs just to get a temporary sensation that makes you feel good!? Doing drugs is a cop out. If you really feel that there isnt something better to do with your life and you feel that the only way you will be happy is if you do drugs, you are taking an easy route. It is much harder to find happiness in your own life sober, but its much more worth while. Heres a challenge, why dont you try a day drug free and stop- and realize all the beautiful simple things in life that can make you happy without drugs...how much you have missed while you were high and dealing and using and now you've got nothing left but no money and an addiction....Think About That.

Sammy

Sammy, shes sitting here sleeping next to me....eyes like little slits and shallow breathing. Shes got dark, but aging fur....grey surrounds her maybellene eyes and muzzle...so soft! Shes been our family protector and companion for eleven years. Giving us kisses when we return home, and she sings her sweet puppy melody as if she hasnt seen us in years. How nice it is, to come home to someone who you can count on loving you no matter what and ready to give wet kisses whenever you please! Shes lovely. Dainty little steps and trotting, she walks like a woman in heels...although old, shes Divine and has all of the attention of the young and older gentlemen doggy friends in the neighborhood. She the queen bee, the princess...does what she pleases. She strolls around the neighborhood at night, mysterious and cunning, playing games with the rabbits and catching chipmunks for fun. She is my doggy, my Sammy and I adore her.

Spidey 3

Spider Man 3 came out on Friday and my boyfriend and I saw it the day it came out. It was really good, but it wasn't what I expected at all. Spider Man becomes evil and he turns into somewhat of an "emo kid" after his life takes a few wrong turns. He starts from clean cut and friendly neighbor to an eyeliner wearing, vengeful, hating person that wears a black costume rather than his original red and blue costume. The movie also ends with him not getting the girl....but watching her walk away. He blew his chance after publicly humiliating her and beating her in a restaurant after she breaks up with him to save his life. I was a little bummed that MJ and Peter Parker did not get married. Well I did love the fact that this film had more funny moments than previous spider man movies. There were several scenes in which a very uncoordinated Peter struts his sexy emo stuff down the street while dancing and pointing at women in NY....hmmm haha. Well I would see it again...it was pretty entertaining

Titanic

Do you remember when Titanic came out and all ofthe girls swooned over Leo DiCaprio and how handsome he was!? How old were we? Ten? maybe 8? I watched it today and my roomate and I almost pooped our pants we were so excited. What made this movie so popular?? If you think about it...the plot was already made up. The only shokcing part was the actual effects when the ship sank...but people LOVE this movie. I know my mom and I have watched it at least ten times...thats a lot of time on our hands! welllll I havent finished it yet...so im gonna get to it...

Good songs

I have been addicted to the following songs lately, "Sparks" by coldplay, "Girlfriend" by Avril Lavigne, "I want it all" by hmmm dunno, "your do damn hot" by OK Go... and hmm o yes "Cupid's Chokehold" by Gym Class Heroes. I love these songs, they are grrreat. I like sparks especially because it reminds me of wedding crashers. I love wedding crashers not just because it is HILARIOUS but also because it was the movie I saw on my first date with my boyfriend of two years. Its good stuff

Baby Shower

Today is my cousin's baby shower. He came up with his wife, Heidi from FL and we are having it at St. Johns high school manor house. Again, there will be chaos. This entire weekend has been chuckfull of Etre togetherness. Friday night my sister Mia had her birthday, last night was my cousin Amie's 30th surprise birthday and today is a baby shower. I swear we multiply like rabbits. Everyone has babies or children....its madness! Well I have to get going to the shower now, it will have kick ass food because my cousin Andrew is catering and his food is AMAZING! soooo I will write again soon.

the PERFECT day

My idea of a perfect day would be to sleep in only till 10 and then get ready for the day. I would go canoeing in Maine and then get a plane over to MA, just in time for lunch. The I would go to Junior's pizza in Worcester for lunch and enjoy a nice margarita pizza. My private jet would then fly me to go see my boyfriend and bring us into Boston. There we would walk around the park at sunset and eat ice cream...BEFORE dinner! haha Then we would be flone over to Alfornos in Providence for dinner. I would order my favorite meal, baked pasta and grilled pizza and then have tiramisu for desert. Last we would be flown over to the beach and we would camp out under the stars and have a bonfire, beer, and marshmellows! Thats my idea of the PERFECT day!

family

When I graduated from high school, I couldnt wait to ditch my family.....as horrible as that sounds...haha they drove me nuts. Now, I really miss them. I never thought I would miss the tiniest things such as home cooking, my own bed, our movie nights, my siblongs....even my doggy Sammy that I had to walk at 7 every morning. I just miss the feeling of home. College has helped me realize how imortant my family really is to me. I know that I would be lost without them to guide me through my problems, but I am kinda sad that I am not a permanent resident in the Etre household anymore. I dont know if its this way for other students, but I feel like a guest when I come home. Its a really weird feeling to go home and not feel like you've always been there. The normalcy just fades away....I cant wait for the summer to come and I will see everyone again...I miss them!

Funny thing

Is'nt it funny how songs can sometimes spark a memory of someone or something that happend?? I have a song that makes me ALWAYS think of my ex boyfriend....and I have another song....."scratch" that my sister and I listen to when we are in a bad mood. I can remember some songs that were playing in the background when a fun or sad memory took place. When I her it again, it triggers that memory. I think its facinating how my mind works like that..who knows.....maybe other people work that way too. I even have a song that I listen to when I need a good cry. "10000 miles".....its the best!

This weekend

This weekend....I went to my boyfriends school Bentley, and I spent friday through monday hanging out with him. Friday I went to Benltey for his formal and had an absolute ball! The dress was a disaster.....the tailor took up the butt and it looked terrible so i sqeezed myself into her little dress...it looked good though! We watched Borat at about two in the morning and we went shopping....overall it was a FUN weekend...!

Easter

This Easter I spent with my Aunt Sue, Uncle Paul, and cousin Michelle. I had a great time.....not to mention the baked ham and taters!! haahaha mmmmm. I love being home! Its the best feeling to catch up with the family and reconnect with them. I miss my sister so much while Im at school. I loved being able to hang out with her and have time to do some sister stuff. I had a great time this weekend.....Im not looking forward to writing the upcoming paper either.....

"fix you"

You know how theres just those songs that your life seems to connect to?? If you have no idea what im talking about, then your probably not a crazed music fanatic like I am, but there is one song that has taken me on a journey in the past two years. The song "Fix you" by coldplay was playing on the radio when I found out my Memere had colon cancer the summer going into my senior year. It is a song about healing and pain, sorrow, but it has a feeling of progression to it. It makes me feel like there is hope and comfort in the future ahead. It was this song I blasted when I was thinking about breaking up with my boyfriend I met my summer of junior year going into senior year. This was the song that I ironically was on the radio when I found out my Memere's cancer had been eliminated and her chemo was over.....It seems to follow me everywhere. This song is very emotional to me and I play it whenever I lose or gain in a personal relationship. It has helped me move on and hold on just a little longer....I stayed with my boyfriend. Its probably the best thing I ever did...

Dance craze

Today I went to my sister's dance competition and I was completely lost! I was insanely confused with the makeup the girls wore and I seriously couldnt tell who was who! They all looked twenty years old! Even my little ten year old cousins gained several years with all that caked make up on. Well I used to be a dancer and I guess I've been away from it so long I forgot what it is like to be in a competition....scary, hectic, and out of control little girls haha. I never realized how hard everyone works to achieve the "perfect" dance routine. I hope she did well.....we left early so we could watch a movie together and do sister stuff...well thats enough for now...

weekend out

This weekend I went to go visit my friend Liz in Boston. It was her nineteenth birthday and she and I had a ball! We walked around Newbury Street, got lost and then ate in Newton Square. She goes to Mount Ida and there are only 1000 students in her entire school. Her cafeteria was the size of one of my classrooms! I am glad UMASS isnt that school, but sometimes I wish our school was smaller.

Kinkos

Did you know that there is wireless connection at kinkos that you have to pay for to use in a small cubicle!? Probably not, but I just found out and thats how im writing my blog today. My mem and pep are not technologically advanced and they do not have an internet connection at their house so I am doing this hear. They would not let me drive and soo....they are here...sitting with me haha. But I do love them very much and I am glad to be here with them. Im lucky I still have grandparents on both sides. They are both 80 years old! Well Im going off now to visit my other side of the family.....my grammy and gramps in Sarasota, FL...soooo I will be writing again soon

finally in Sunny Florida

Hello.....I just arrived in Florida and it was a little crazy....but im here! My trip was alright......if you enjoy small airplanes. The first airplane I went on had only thirteen rows of seats...and I was in the very last seat...with a rather plump man who trapped me into my claustrophobic seat with his mindless discussions and large size. Not to mention this seat was facing the window...near the bathroom! The second plane..I figured couldnt possibly be as small as the firt, but to my surprise, it was! It had only three seats across the entire plane. I was in a single seat though! That was nice! When I arrived in Fort Lauderdale, my bad was missing...so I had to search frantically for it...but luckily it was found in the lost baggage claim...I hate traveling. I love vacationing

Sunshine

I think sunshine is addictive. It makes sense....becausewhy else would people go tanning in the winter? Once someone gets some, they still are left wanting more....and more...until they become cocoa puffs. Well I know I like the sun because it literally makes me feel good! When I go outside and the sun is shining and its warm out, its almost impossible to have a bad day. Today was beautiful out and I loved it!

this week

Because I am writing two posts this evening because I forgot about this assignment, I will write a plan for the next week so i can study for mid-terms...I know...im boring. Tonight I will study for my Education 210 exam that is Tuesday. Tomorrow I will study a little more for Education 210 and then I will get my Tuesday assignments done ahead of time so I can make my show I HAVE to attend for my Lively Arts class....the tempest...ew. Then on Wednesday, I will write my midterm essay due on Friday for Natural Disasters. I will also do Thursdays assignments/readings. On Thursday, I will proofread and finish my paper due on Friday and I will begin studying for my midterm exam in Natural Disasters, this will happen after I attend the other required show for the lively arts at 8:00pm this is a classical music concert. I will also enjoy the warm weather!!! On friday.....I will RELAX and drive home. I will hang out with my best buddy Liz and we will pack for my trip to FL that I will be leaving for at 10 am the following day. I will spend nine lovely days in Boca and get a nice tan. I will love my life!

Born Kltuz

Have you ever seen someone on tv that seems ridiculously klutzy and you think, no one is that uncoordinated! Welll.......I am one of those characters that make those tv shows a reality. If there is a banana peel in the middle of the street, somehow my feet always seem to find it. If there is a small teeny tiny branch in my path, somehow it will knock me to the ground. I have been born with the natural ability to be clumsy. I think it began with my Grandmother. She was washing my dog outside once and she managed to fall off the railed porch! She was okay..she just had a couple bruises. I was so lucky to inherit this trait! Today I went to the park with my boyfriend and I thought i'd show off by walking a log that was very thin that was lined all the way across the park. I managed to do it perfectly, I hoped down, skipped over to him and he gave me an exaggerated applause when I was walking up the bleachers, my foot caught and i went face first into the bleacher above me, spilling my coffee and hurting my chest. Needless to say, he could not even try to muffle his laughter and I will live on my legacy of uncoordinated disaster haha.

Felicity

There is this show out there called Felicity. It came out in 1998 I think and it was fairly popular almost ten years ago. My mother was religious with watching the show about a young nerdy girl in college finding her way into the young adult world. I couldn't help but get attached to it as well. It became a time for my mother and I to bond and talk like girls love to do. When the show ended after four years, (because there are four years of college) me and mom were heartbroken. Well, this year I was surfingthe web and I remembered our love for the show. I purchased the first season! Well as soon as I got it, my mother was throwing fits haha. As soon as I finished it at school, I sent it home to my mother and my little sister to watch and rekindle old memories. Before we knew it, we purchased the 2nd, 3rd, and 4th seasons. Its an addictive show with many love scandals and friendship woes. I love it. Im not sure its the show that makes it such a warm experience, but its the nostalgia for watching a chick show with my mother. It was such a fun time to set aside an hour and talk about the characters while munching on popcorn and giggling about how my mother's life in college reminded her of the fun times shown on the show. Now that im in college, I appreciate many things about my mother and the rest of my family that I never noticed before. If theres anything I miss the most, its my mother's stories and just laughing with her. Shes my best friend and now being in college, we are apart. I don't think I love Felicity, I just love the time I spent with my mom while watching a college drama and spliting laughs with hot chocolate and warm memories.

home cooking

There is nothing more I miss while at schools than my parent's home cooking. I HATE DC food. It tastes all like one thing. Everything after awhile seems to take on one color and its produced in mass proportions, so its difficult to find it appealing. The only thing I look forward to is waffle making because I get to make it myslef! The prego pasta sauce just doesn't seem to cut it when it compares to dads pasta dishes at home. I REALLY miss dad's kilbasa and moms chicken soup, Memere's meatloaf, Pepere's pizza, and many other famil dishes. I have never been more greatful for my home cooking in my life. I find myself stuffing my stomach till it blows on the weekends I come home to visit. I guess all I can say is theres nothing like home cooking.......hopefully someday I will learn how to make these things myself and I can make them for myself instead of complaining about my need for them haha

Chick Flicks

Jerry Maguire is the BEST movie! Not only is it a cute love story, but the little boy is ADORABLE!!! I always watch this movie whenever I want a good laugh and its definately a "humpday" movie. For some reason I have an obsession with romantic chick flicky films. Yes...yes The Notebook is also one of my favorites. I don't know why me andso many other women watch these movies. They usually make me sad that I cant be with my boyfriend, or if im single, it makes me depressed that I dont have someone to miss. Is it the humor? Is the fact that we can predict what will happen? Or is it the fact that they usually have a happy ending? Whatever it is, someones gotta let me know....cuz im tired of falling under the chick flick rut.

Romantic need

I know all women who have a significant other will say to their boyfriend/girlfriend...."don't get me flowers for Valentines Day, thats so cliche" but really, we do want flowers. I am one of those girls. I say I do not want anything too special and I bash the holiday for being a money sucker for card company's, but really, I am a pathetic romantic and I love the idea of a day of love. I unfortunately did not spend Valentines Day with my boyfriend...I was alone haha. This weekend I had the BEST Valentines Day EVER! My boyfriend who is never romantic...haha his idea of romantic is getting me a stuffed animal...anyways...he sent me flowers on Saturday and had my mother deliver them! Then on Sunday he took me into Boston and into the North End. This is a soft spot for me because I am VERY Italian and I LOOOOOVE Italian food. I had the best meal at Retorante Villa Francesca.Then we sipped coffee in the grafitii cafe ...one of my favorites and had an amazing night....I was SO impressed. I've got a good one!

Personal essay

How does one find themselves in a paper? I tried so hard to write about a single thing that described me, and I couldnt come up with ANYTHING! Its so difficult to squeeze important life experiences onto four pages. It seems almost impossible. I could write about my family because I get my sense of humor and my love for life from them. I love their food, our culture, but it seems more them than me. I could write about dance, But i quit two years ago. I would write about the New Orleans Trip, but something negative came from it......I lost my faith. I don't know where to begin but i hope to god some kind of miracle happens and an essay srikes me on top of the head before next thursday!

Middle School Fun Times

Last night I went to a dance that was themed "Middle School". It was in the Butterfield Dorm in the basement. It was the most fun I have EVER had. I really felt like I was in middle school again. This was so nostalgic that I could actually remember specific token memories from these dances that happened five years ago. Wow....that seems so long ago! I felt kinda weird at the same time. It was kinda like watching parents when they dance at weddings or partys and they are having a ball, but your thinking...."wow, my parents are SUCH dorks!" . We alll we having a ball because it brought back old memories, but I did notice some of the people hosting it laughing at our dance moves and poking fun at our outrageous enthusiasm. For the first time, I felt kinda old. It was a new feeling to me because Im usually the one that tells my parents how lame they were when they were kids, but this time, I was the lamer haha. I was the one that people were laughing at....I guess from now on I will be nicer to the adults.....because unfortunately, Im getting older too.

Wedding gowns and edgy photos

When I was sitting in my Diversity in Education class yesterday, we played several ice breaking games. One that caught my attention was an immediate questioning and answering game that is played by responding to his question with the first thought that crosses your mind. I enjoyed this game and I didn't think much of it at the time until he asked the troublesome question of "If you could be anything in the world, what would you be" This was in reference to a profession. My response was "A wedding dress designer". My answer shocked many of the students in my class and to be honest, it shocked me too. I am going to school to be an elementary school teacher and my true dream is to design wedding gowns. My professor then proceeded to ask "How many of you are actually going to school for your "dream job"?" I was ashamed to not be raising my hand. I want to be doing my dream job. I don't dream of becoming a teacher. It suites me because I love children and i can teach pretty well, but its not my dream. There are other things I wish to be such as a hairdresser, and a photographer. I never considered these things to be professions because in rare cases they provide a living and are practical. I am an artist and I feel happiest when I am using my creativity. I am beginning to wonder if I shouldchange my major to follow my heart and risk making nothing for a living or if i should go with what is practical? These next four years will probably be the most life changing and challenging years of my life

math illiteracy

When we were told we could write about absolutely anything...I guess i was taken aback. This statements entitles me to write anything I want to and so, I will. I am going to rant about my math class. I am taking a class that is called math 102, Precalculus. This class is a two semester class that settles the R2 requirement. I HATE IT! I want to become a teacher for third graders and it frustrates me that I need to take complicated math courses to do so. When it comes to English, I am passionate, but math....I could think of many four letter words to describe the subject. In other words, it is not a subject that comes naturally to me. Now we have a complete revision of the course halfway through the year. Now instead of writing out math problems and bringing them into class on a step by step basis, we have to complete the homework online! We have no way of looking back to see what we have done and EVERY thing is graded by the computer. The worst part is, I have to get a 70 or higher to proceed to the next homework or to take the next quiz. If we dont pass these things in before the due date, they don't count. Tonight I have a homework to redue so I can do a quiz. I didnt get a 70, so i have to retake the quiz so i can take the next homework so i can also get a 70 to be able to do wednesday nights homework! I am FURIOUS!!!