Thinking time

I have not had much to write about lately. I have actually had too much to write down. I'm sorting myself out. Changing some things. Going back to some old habits.....good ones. I'm weeding out the bad in my life to move on and grow. I am growing. Senior year is approaching and I feel as though i'm still a child. I want to succeed. i want to meet new amazing people to change my life path. I just want to live. I feel as though my entire life has been playing it safe. I do not take enough risk. I live cautiously. I don't hurt feelings, I don't get into trouble, I try no to dissapoint. I'm starting to realize that life is full of mistakes to learn from and I should be open to making them. I also should be okay with who I am. I may never be that crazy girl that is the life of every party and free of sexual limitations, but I own that. I am who I am. I'm realizing that I can take risks while still being me. I will not grow if I do not jump. Lately I've been on the edge and now im ready to take the plunge. I want to pick MY life career. I am an artist and will become a good one in my own way. I will read and educate myself. I will meet someone who shares my interests and thirst for learning. I will be fine. Now I just have to figure out how to have fun while doing it haha.