Enough Said

Did you know that you actually tore my heart out of chest? It's almost completely healed now...but I feel like I have some things to say. It started out great, our first year was our best, you taught me things I would have never been exposed to. You showed me who I really was and I liked how I turned out. You taught me how to laugh at myself and how to have fun....but you also showed me what its really like to cry and how hard life really is outside of my own and that things aren't sugar coated. You opened my eyes to a world where I feel naked, but im glad it happend. In our second year, we struggled, but we tried really hard to keep ot going. College brought us our independence and we both embraced it.We met new people and changed our lives...almost to the point where we changed us. Something happend along the way that changed our connection.We fought about things we shouldn't have and said some things we didn't mean leaving behind some memories I wish I could erase. Looking back I understand why it ended. We became different people and drifted apart. We have different living styles and our moral outlook is different. We are at different maturity levels and could not make it work. I also learned from you that I can change and grow and be stronger than I ever thought I could be. You also showed me what to look for in the next relationship, which is important to me. What I don't understand is why you did not tell me about what happend to you this summer. Yes, I know. Im dissapointed...you know better. Your life path is delicate. You may never read this, but if you do, you'll know this is for you and I want to tell you not to fuck up your life. You know your circumstances and you know what your life could be like if you don't handle it correctly. I never understood it. I don't know if I ever will. Even though its taken me months to ease the pain, im almost done healing and I want you to know im fine without you. I reminisce sometimes, but im moving on without you. Im growing by myself and I wouldn't change anything at all. Thanks for everything. You've changed me forever.
Devon